No one expected Dia Richardson to get religion, and certainly not the
one she got.
After all, she had lived fast for many years. If the clubs were open,
Richardson was there. At Thanksgiving dinner one year, her uncle--one
of three Christian ministers in her family--asked her reprovingly,
"Just how many beers are you going to drink?"
"As many as I brought," she sassed.
Then her friend Khadijah Shabazz, who is Muslim, invited Richardson to
a mosque wedding in Culver City. Richardson accepted, even though she
knew she would have to wear a skirt that covered her legs, "my
best asset."
It was the first time she had been inside a mosque. The simple
reverence of the ceremony, the Arabic prayer resonating in the domed
hall, awakened something in her, Richardson said. So did the sound of
her 10-year-old son's voice when he intoned the Koranic verse Shabazz
had taught him: Bismallah Ir-Rahman Ir-Rahim. In the name of Allah,
the Beneficent, the Merciful.
But not until Sept. 11 did Richardson begin to imagine what it might
be like to be a follower of Prophet Muhammad. As reports of
anti-Muslim incidents mounted, Richardson witnessed Shabazz's
forbearance.
"People told her to take off her head scarf to be safe, but she
wouldn't do it," Richardson said. "I saw how disciplined and
calm they were. And I don't know any Christian who prays at the same
time five times a day."
Richardson, 30, became her friend's protector, and eventually, her
fellow believer.
Richardson's story is a dramatic contrast to the recent saga of John
Walker Lindh, the white suburban youth from Northern California who
joined the Taliban and was captured by American troops in Afghanistan.
If Lindh is the most extreme representative of American Muslim
converts, Richardson personifies the majority: African American,
urban, in search of answers and a more disciplined form of worship.
Islam, a 1,400-year-old religion with as many as 1 billion adherents
worldwide, has been growing steadily in the United States. American
Muslim groups report anecdotal evidence that enrollments have been
surging since Sept. 11 as more Americans became aware of the religion,
though there are no reliable statistics. There also is no way to
predict how many will backslide. Joining may be the easiest part of
being a Muslim. The challenges usually come after converts commit
their daily lives to Islam's sacrificial demands.
Converts such as Richardson must forgo drink, pork, church, old
boyfriends and miniskirts for a regimen of prayer, fasting and study.
And often, they face skepticism and disdain from friends and family.
Relatives Less Than Enthusiastic
One of her uncles laughed aloud when she told him about her new faith:
"Uh-huh, whatever." Yolanda Smith, Richardson's aunt and an
evangelist minister, says, "I won't be running to her with
congratulations."
One of the first people Richardson telephoned after she converted to
Islam was her uncle John Wood, who lives in Riverside and is also an
evangelist minister.
"You did what? Are you out of your mind?" Then she heard him
scrambling for his Bible. "Wait a minute, let me read something
to you." He found a passage from the Book of John: "He gave
his only begotten son, that whosoever believeth in him should not
perish. . . ."
"I knew you were going to try to preach it out of me, Uncle John,
that's why I didn't call you before," Richardson told him
wearily. "But I've been reading the Koran, and I think it's the
best thing for me."
But Richardson's family and friends are skeptical about that, because
Richardson hasn't done so well in finding those best things.
The man who fathered Richardson's son out of wedlock has been in and
out of jail. Richardson herself was arrested in 1999 after she fought
with the father of her 4-year-old daughter and wounded him with a
knife.
She dropped out of college. She tried cosmetology school. She ran
through jobs like she ran through boyfriends and flamboyant
hairstyles. She caroused at night and slept till noon.
That's why Richardson's mother, Le'Jeune Fletcher of Acton, is so
doubtful that Islam is for her daughter. The other reason is that
Fletcher spends time in Saudi Arabia, where her second husband
sometimes works as a petroleum engineer. Fletcher is not a Muslim, but
says she has learned something about what it takes.
"These people are very serious about their faith and have very
strict beliefs," Fletcher said. "They pray five times a day.
I just don't think Dia has that kind of discipline."
Like many new converts of any faith, Richardson came to Islam at a
time of crisis. A few weeks ago, she lost her latest job, her
apartment in Acton, and then her father broke his hip and slipped into
a coma during surgery.
One of the few bright spots in Richardson's life was her friendship
with Shabazz.
Shabazz, who runs a Muslim day-care center out of her home in Central
Los Angeles, had agreed to home-school Richardson's son, Christopher.
Shabazz, 41, was a Jehovah's Witness when she married a Muslim man 20
years ago and converted. She never chided Richardson about her
lifestyle or tried to proselytize her. And Shabazz taught Christopher
about Islam only after he asked why she bowed to the east at noon.
One night a few months ago, staying at her father's home in Silver
Lake, Richardson pressed her hands together to pray with Christopher
at his bedside. Christopher stopped her and reached for her hands.
"Don't pray like that," he said, turning her palms skyward.
"Pray like this so you can receive the blessings."
Eventually, he started asking Richardson whether he could be a Muslim.
"Why do you want to do that?" she asked him.
"I just like it," Christopher said. Shabazz, he said, was
"so calm and you're so hyper."
Christopher saw the fight when his mother brandished a knife. He was
there when the police came and arrested her. He was there when she and
her friends got drunk, and when she woke up hung over and interested
in little more than going back to sleep.
"I just didn't feel that we were living nice," Christopher
said. "I didn't like staying with baby-sitters. I just wanted to
stay with my mom. I was mad. I was depressed."
Christopher just about dragged his mother to the mosque wedding of one
of the teachers at Shabazz's day care.
"I have something to do," she told Christopher. "I have
to work late."
"Na-uh, no you don't," Christopher said.
When Richardson arrived at Shabazz's house, she was told that she
would have to borrow some clothes before entering the mosque.
"Everything I have is all short, short and cleavage," she
said.
One of the women gave Richardson a long-sleeved ankle-length gown.
Another pitched in a scarf to cover her head and neck. Richardson
looked in the mirror--and was pleasantly surprised: "Hey! I still
look kind of good."
The wedding was at King Fahd Mosque. Built in 1998 with some Saudi
funding, the mosque cost more than $8 million and is one of the
nation's largest. Richardson said she was immediately struck by how
reverent the atmosphere was.
"At my uncle's church, everyone is always whooping and
hollering," she said. "But everything is quiet in there, and
peaceful."
Then an undulating voice came blazing through that silence, an Arabian
melody calling the gathering to prayer: Allah'u'Akbar! Allah'u'Akbar!
"What does that mean?" Richardson whispered. Shabazz
whispered back, "God is great."
Great or not, Richardson had a party to go to after the wedding,
"so I put on my miniskirt and went out."
A few days later, Muslim terrorists took over four American airliners
and crashed them into buildings and a field, killing thousands.
Richardson wanted to know why Muslims would do such a thing--and does
Muhammad say such men go to hell?
He does, said Shabazz. "That was not an Islamic act."
As reports of attacks against Muslims came in following Sept. 11,
Richardson spent more time with Shabazz. "I was like her guard
dog," she said.
On a shopping trip one day, Richardson noticed people giving Shabazz
the evil eye because of her traditional dress. Sometimes Richardson
returned the sentiment with a hand gesture that isn't in any holy
book.
During those trying days, Richardson saw reflected in Shabazz's
certitude her own emptiness and confusion.
"I was just smoking weed, being with guys, having no job. I was
just wild.
"One time I was getting my hair braided up and I thought: 'Look
at all this trouble I'm going through getting my hair done when it's
very obvious the whole world is going to hell.' God or an angel or
some voice in my head was just telling me: 'You need to do something.'
"
Back at her father's apartment, Richardson found the book of Islamic
supplications Shabazz had given her and opened it.
My forelock is in your hand . . . your decree over me is just.
And she seemed to hear the words she read reverberating within her.
You make the Koran the life of my heart and the light of my breast and
a departure for my sorrow and a release for my anxiety.
She went to see Shabazz.
"I walked in in my miniskirt and was like: 'I'm going to take
shahada [testimony of faith] today.' '
Compared with the rites of study and ministerial approval required of
new Jews and Catholics, Muslim conversion is relatively simple. In
most of the Islamic world, only a witness and a promise is necessary
to join the faith community. Christopher was at Richardson's side when
they recited the ancient oath: "I bear witness there is no God
but Allah and Muhammad is his Messenger."
With that, she took a baptismal shower and for the second time in her
life donned a borrowed hijab.
Facing Challenges of a New Faith
She enjoys reading the Koran in English, and has been committing to
memory her obligatory prayers in Arabic. Other aspects of her new
faith have been more difficult. Muslims have been fasting from sunrise
to sunset for almost a month now in observance of Ramadan. She misses
listening to rap music, especially the bawdy Oakland lyricist Too
Short. Richardson's birthday party is this week, and she wonders how
fun it will be sober.
Old boyfriends keep calling. "They keep trying--'One last time
for the road?' "
Richardson has been careful so far. But she knows she has a long path
in front of her, and she has so many doubters in her life.
"Muhammad didn't save nobody," her Uncle John thundered from
the other end of the phone. "Muhammad didn't say, like Jesus: 'I
am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father,
but by me.' "
Richardson's aunt, Donna Wood--also a minister--took an even dimmer
view: "I think it's a cult, and it's going to end up leading Dia
straight to hell."
For the first time in many years, Richardson skipped the family
Thanksgiving meal.
Last week, she went to her friends, hairdressers Simone Richardson and
Maurice Mitchell, at the Silver Slipper Salon for a little respite.
Richardson strolled in wearing a head scarf and Simone Richardson--no
relation to Dia--looked at her old friend quizzically.
"I'm a Muslim."
Simone's jaw dropped. "No you didn't."
"Yes I did."
Mitchell didn't look up from the hair he was curling. "If I
hadn't seen it, I wouldn't believe it."
After an awkward silence, Simone told the woman whose hair she was
styling: "She's out of control. I'm praying for her. You know
when Muhammad went into that cave, and he was supposed to hear from
God or whatever? Well, when he came out, he seemed to have a lot of
the same issues that are in Christianity. It seems like a knockoff of
Christianity."
"It is a knockoff of Christianity," Richardson said.
"Just like Christianity is a knockoff from the Jews."
"Six months," Simone said, combing out a kink. "I give
her six months."
"What temple do you go to?" Mitchell asked.
"It's called a mosque."
"You're not supposed to date?"
"Nope."
Simone sounded concerned: "What about the submissive part?"
"What do you mean, submissive?" Richardson asked with slight
annoyance. "You've been watching too much Sally Field in 'Not
Without My Daughter.' "
The questions continued. By the end of the visit, Simone Richardson
and Mitchell seemed more worried about their friend than convinced by
her. But they tried to be supportive.
Richardson offered them the Arabic salutation, "Assalam-al-aikum"--God's
peace be upon you--and left in time for her evening prayer.